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My last wish…? Next time I should not die as born.
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Aug-26-2011
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My last wish…? Next time I should not die as born.
Before I close my eyes and become declared as dead biologically the I in me has some last wish… I came here & now depart … may be to come back again (rebirth) but what was my achievement during this stay. I remember when I gathered some sense around four to five years of my age the craving for sweets was irresistible. If not checked I could simply go on gulping sweets unless elders physically made a policing objection. I also remember that I
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My last wish…? Next time I should not die as born.
Before I close my eyes and become declared as dead biologically the I in me has some last wish… I came here & now depart … may be to come back again (rebirth) but what was my achievement during this stay. I remember when I gathered some sense around four to five years of my age the craving for sweets was irresistible. If not checked I could simply go on gulping sweets unless elders physically made a policing objection. I also remember that I had just learned to climb school bus firmly and my eyes were always on search for some one else’s belongings; sometimes it was a fancy school bag, a ‘toyish’ pencil or celestial design borne water bottle… I just wanted to possess that inconsiderate of what I actually had. It reminds at the same age when someone hurled an unpleasant remark or gesture towards me… then at that moment I was unstoppable and shall project all wraths upon the source. I can recall that television programs specially the ones I cannot imagine a child witness today were my favorites and for them I could postpone all expected out of me; ranging right from arranging my bag to accomplishment of my daily home work. I was a procrastinator right from birth and I admit that I was scared to sleep alone in dark. Any small unexpected event could raise my physiological parameters to their brink.
I can replay my adolescent age when I savvied to always live in spontaneity and never gave a rightful planning gather edge in my affairs. During those days I can see myself always confused to opt amongst two and would always search for some external input to end my indecisiveness. It was even then that I sought self-approval on all petty and vital issues before my life. I witnessed and judged the self in eyes of others. My emotions always took the steering with no consideration to logic or logistics. Mix of brain and heart could never gain ground in me…
AND today it is the time for the last wish. Firstly, a wish from whom? And secondly when and where do I intend to fructify that wish since the time cheque of this life is now exhausted.
This last wish is from my own ‘self’; both the deeper self and the peripheral one. This last wish presumed with an expectancy to cherish in the next life to come.
What is the last wish? It is that Next time I should not die as born.
All shortfalls that traveled down with me from my last birth to the one that now ends … continued as it is… as my age progressed the form of those basic instinctive deficiencies acquired new forms and faces. Lack of self-control, jealousy, lack of confidence, search success merely outward, procrastination, carelessness, fear and anxiety with many more accompaniments remained my inseparable compatriots through out. I could not evolve out of these potholes to any degree and depart with them in their own original intensity.
Next time I don’t want them to continue with me as they did this time. I wish that the moment I gather a reasonable level of sense in my next life I should be able to win over upon all these demonic creepers within that did not allow this life become a festival… instead this life confined itself to mere accumulative robot that intelligently complied with the norms of survival and came out as the fittest… no this is unacceptable. My last wish is to gain all control in the opportunity bestowed to me next time… next life.
When is the next life?
Indian ethos mentions that it is death each night one sleeps and it is a rebirth each morning one wakes up… Considering this belief for me and for you as well tomorrow morning is another birth so why not note down some creepers that ail our life and prepare for a head on combat tomorrow and also resolve once for all that we shall not settle for anything less then absolute victory. This knowledge of enablement is the basic intention for notes4growth at desire2will.com to be released shortly. Dinesh kumar (learning under discipline)
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Article Source :
http://www.articleseen.com/Article_My last wish…? Next time I should not die as born._77179.aspx
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Author Resource :
www.desire2will.com
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Keywords :
Last wish, death, next life, rebirth, who am I, learning, knowledge, yoga, desire2will, dinesh kumar,
Category :
Self Improvement
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Self Improvement
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